I have someone I can tell personal things to. When I don't have that trust between me and a friend I become insecure. The loss of a friend is more painful than anything I have ever experienced. I need to feel that my friends reciprocate my feelings because I'm afraid of losing them. Along with emotional stress, I experience physical tension. Like I said, when I'm anxious I get stomach aches. I also suffer from panic attacks. The more it affects me mentally, the more it affects me physically. In the Iliad there are many manifestations of this. One is when Achilles loses Patroclus. After losing him, he realizes he can't go home. To me this is similar because since he didn't reciprocate his love for Patroclus. he caused emotional distress to himself by doing this. He deals with grief by realizing that he can no longer face his family at home. Another person receiving stress due to lack of reciprocated love was Thetis. She loved her son so much that she was willing to do anything. Every time he got closer you could see he was in pain. From time to time Achille asked and she did