I'm absolutely nervous about my situation, I can't take it anymore, I'm lost in this world and I don't have the faintest idea what to do. I need someone to help me but I can't trust anyone except you. Gatsby has been in my head all day, all the moments between us have made me sad, but no, I can't let him go simply because this. Do you understand me darling? It's not so easy to run out of my life and leave all the planned life here as if nothing happened when I started to get used to it. Oh God, running away with Gatsby was a bad idea from the beginning, when we were young; I knew this whole process would bring more problems into my life, but I was stupid enough to follow it. It all started when I met Gatsby for the first time, he was a handsome soldier who was completely interested in me and I was the center of attention of my entire college. For the moment I decided to accept it, even though I know that this would not improve my economic situation at all, everyone could see that he was not rich. Afterwards, I can't really remember how it happened, but I was extremely in love with him, every little aspect, every little act that came from him was beautiful. Then, do you know what happened? Oh darling, how could I explain it, I don't know where my mind was. Gatsby and I tried to escape the country and start a new life together, but honey, it wasn't possible. My stupid family accompanied me after every step I took, I couldn't do anything independently, which ultimately didn't help me at all. Back to the point, do you know what happened next? I cried and cried until I drowned in my own tears, sad because Gatsby had left me here and gone to war, with nothing, I just, oh God, it was so sad. I was deeply hurt. But this is my situation now; after my pain, I didn't...half of the paper...killed makes me so sad; but my feelings are closed to everyone, I have to continue my life; happy and peaceful. I always have to pretend like there's no problem, my little world makes me feel good, makes me feel powerful. Tom and I therefore decided not to go to Gatsby's funeral, forget our past and start a new beginning. We are planning to focus more in our relationship making it stronger to set an example for my daughter, even though I know Tom is not a reliable person. I have to move on, I can't stay here and cry rivers just like years before, not again. We are planning a trip to Hawaii, away from here to forget our problems. Finally, we are planning to return when every little memory has faded. So yeah, I'm going away for a few years; any small details please call or write to me. I love you very much and please stay in touch.