My good friend said that "counseling is a way to get rid of the bad". At the time, I didn't quite understand what he meant by his statement, but now, examining my counseling sessions, I understand. His statement or quote means letting go of what's bothering you, then, now, or in the past so you can vent to someone who isn't completely biased or one-sided. I guess maybe this isn't the right response to my friend's testimony, but I realize that counseling for me was a way to vent and understand myself. Even though my friend's quote affected me and provoking my feelings towards counseling sessions was thought to be something I didn't want to do. I feared and didn't like the thought of feeling that that was the doubt was my collection of not having my self-gratification. I needed to realize that I had to have an “inner talk,” meaning I had to really sit down with myself or when I was in a situation and basically talk to myself to make sure it was a person of quality and substance. Additionally, it gave me the ability to self-medicate and recognize that I am a person with a voice (even if I'm not perfect) that I can use to help others who are going through what I went through. This realization occurred in my seventh session. I continued to face the problem of not making progress in accepting that my behaviors were not helping me succeed. So for me I think I was growing but also weathering. I feel like I'm now on the right path to making sure I'm the best person I could be. The more I realize that I have the ability to be able to kill myself is a wonderful feeling. The more I think about my friend and her quote, “counseling is a way to get rid of evil,” the more I feel that getting rid of this evil means getting rid of some of the baggage I have. I think about what my friend said every day. I really feel that his understanding of your experience has made me more adaptable to deal with my own experiences that I am going through. Now I just know that I can make a difference in myself without the guilt of feeling selfish or having an ego. I know that now, through self-talk, I can be a better person. That I know I can be a person with quality and